April Updates

Hello.^^/

For the past couple of weeks I’ve been very busy with all kinds of things. I’ve been out socialising, continuing my outside projects and helping out with various tasks.

I got back into swimming a couple of weeks ago. I was hesitant in both weeks as the pool was filled with adults and children and we nearly bumped into each other a few times. I do my best to read situations but sometimes you learn things through experience rather than logic, even if you practice the scenario 100 times in your head. Haha.

I’ve been out a few other times as well and watched Wrestlemania at my brother’s and hanging out at Starbucks. My bro and I were both laughing because the gentleman that served me thought my name was Ray, not Ryan. I was chuckling to myself at that silly moment whilst gazing at nothing in particular when a lady, who stood near us, looked up and smiled at me. I felt a little awkward at that moment it looked as though I’ve been staring and smiling at her all that time. Of course this wasn’t the case and I would understand if she thought if I was bonkers but I will take a smile over a frown any day!

 

We had a lot of visitors at my home throughout the week and I helped to look after my niece twice this week on the same days as yoga and swimming. All was well when I felt something was off when I came back from yoga. I don’t know why but I felt very dizzy and lethargic and at one point I thought I was going to be sick. Why was I suddenly feeling ill? I had no idea why. The answer came to me quickly, a combination of lack of sleep and not giving myself enough time to recharge my batteries.

It has been a challenging week for me personally. I usually take things easy but lately I’ve been busier than ever and I’m not used to socialising with others more than once a week. Deep down I’ve probably withheld my stress and doing my best to persevere. My body and mind needs to slow down and take things easier, especially with things that aren’t in my control. It didn’t help that I got back into the habit of going to bed late and waking up very early.

It’s all ok though, as soon as I recognised something was wrong I tried to listen to the current conditions of my mind and body. What would cheer me up? Once decided I had a deep bath, watched Non Non Biyori and wrote some notes on my fantasy story. The only way I get rid of my negative thinking is to not try to force it out but to accept it and override it with something that makes me happy and only then will the negatives wash away. It works every time.

I feel it’s important to remember that even when I’m having an off day I know what makes me happy. =)

 

I also made the sad decision to get rid of my Lady Lamp. I’ve had it since I was sixteen but throughout the years it has been pretty much decaying to the point where it couldn’t be fixed. It was a very big decision and letting go of attachments is never easy. I was upset at first when I decided to let it go but I got used to its absence very quickly. It’s reassuring for me that I’m able to let go of materialistic attachments, especially something as precious as my Lady Lamp.

 

All these events remind me that no matter how challenging life gets things will turn out well in the end. =D

 

I like to talk about my current thoughts on anime and manga but I’ll leave that for another time. =)

 

Thanks for reading,

Ryan. =)

My First Year Blog Anniversary

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Blog Tidings.^^/

It seems rather strange that I have been blogging for one full year now and this was met by many adventures that I did during that period. =) I’m not sure how it started really. I believe I was just rambling on with my family when it came up in passing that I should blog about my experiences with Autism. I learned over the years that writing things down can release my unwanted tension and it’s another form of me expressing myself. =)

After careful consideration, I registered on WordPress and my blogging journey started…

I could talk about my year as a whole, but instead, I’ll just summarise and link to the blogs that I think are significant.^^/

  1. Introduction

This is my introduction which I wrote one year ago. =)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2013/11/16/introduction/)

  1. WWE Raw 2013

I went to WWE Raw with my circle friends. I used to be a big fan of WWE but this was the first time that I attended an actual wrestling show. It was daunting but it wasn’t as bad as I expected it to be. Plus, my favourite wrestlers were in attendance.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2013/11/28/wwe-raw-experience/)

  1. Segway

This was good experience and an instant highlight of the year. I arranged a birthday treat for my brother. This was the first time that I had actually arranged anything. I was also venturing into the unknown here. It was a little distance away but we both had a really good time and I would do Segway again without hesitation.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2013/12/07/segway/)

  1. Pub-Quizzing

On some occasions I would go to the Pub Quiz either as a night out or to celebrate a special occasion. I would often have to have a long think about whether I want to go out or not. Last month though, I went to the pub quiz for Cheese’s (the friend, not the dairy product) birthday celebration. Instead of needing to think I just decided to deal with my emotions when the time arrived.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2013/12/14/pub-quizzing/)

  1. WWE Royal Rumble

In early 2014 I stayed at my brother’s until the early hours watching WWE Royal Rumble. For some televised wrestling events I would often stay over. Usually after the event I spend the rest of my night sitting in a chair reading as I don’t feel comfortable sleeping in someone else’s house.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/01/31/wwe-royal-rumble-2014/)

  1. Completing a Writing Course

This was certainly a joyous occasion and I celebrated it with a pint of J2O. 😉 I learned a lot about writing and how to approach a publisher. Nothing has been happening for me and my books just yet but I believe I’m steering myself in the right direction. =)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/01/17/passing-an-online-course/)

  1. Positivity and Autism

Naturally, coping with Autism can be tough. I tend to over-think and read into situations that are not there.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/03/15/negativity-to-positivity/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/10/18/negativity-to-positivity-over-thinking/)

  1. Visiting College

Visiting my college again was quite a challenge. I was invited back to college a few times to watch performances and to catch up with people but I declined those offers. I was out of routine and had become unfamiliar with everything.

However, this year, I decided to pluck up my own courage and visited. I thought long and hard about this invitation but in the last minute I decided to say “yes.”

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/06/25/visiting-college/)

  1. The Wedding Blogs

I didn’t have much to blog about in July except for one…my sister’s wedding. That was a very significant moment and I achieved a lot personally on that day.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/07/28/the-wedding-part-one/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-wedding-part-two/)

  1. Yoga

My outlook on myself and confidence is highly due to my regular practice in Yoga.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/08/23/my-yoga-journey/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/10/05/my-yoga-journey-continues/)

  1. Film with a Friend

I went to watch the Transformers film with a friend… this was definitely a significant moment as this was the first time that I’ve been out with someone without a family member being present. The following day I went to the cinema with my Dad, and I took the initiative as he is less familiar with the procedure then I am.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/08/25/transformers-age-of-extinction-film-review/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/08/26/inbetweeners-2-film-review/)

  1. Impromptu Outing

Going to an impromptu trip to a train station was an interesting challenge.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/08/27/journey-to-tumbleweed-station/)

  1. November Happenings

November was very busy month and was perhaps the most challenging.

I designed a Halloween costume dressed as the Shockmaster for my Brother’s Halloween party. The day after that I went to London to watch Distant Worlds: music from Final Fantasy orchestra at the Royal Albert Hall. As I travelled to London it was necessary for me to stay in a hotel, the first time that I ever slept in a bed that wasn’t my own… If that wasn’t challenging enough, I then travelled to Liverpool to watch WWE Raw.

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/11/03/halloween-as-the-shockmaster/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/11/05/london-trip-part-one-the-preparation/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/11/07/london-trip-part-two-the-london-experience/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/11/11/london-trip-part-three-the-final-fantasy-concert/)

(http://ryanlikestospeak.wordpress.com/2014/11/13/wwe-raw-and-liverpool-experience/)

BLOGGING

I believe I still have a lot to learn where blogging is concerned. What I have learnt though is that at times I probably forced myself to blog about stuff if I felt that I should blog about it. I like to think that in one year I developed my own style of writing and blogging. I consider myself always upbeat and looking on the happy side of life.

What I learnt is that I need to enjoy what I’m writing and I would often remind myself that all these blogs are from my own point of view. I tend to get the best out of myself if I enjoy writing, especially when reviewing film and manga. It can be hard at times since I find it difficult to summarise but thankfully I have my editor (aka Mum) to help me out. 😉

I find as well that if you don’t force yourself to blog you will have more things to talk about.

I feel a lot better when I’m blogging as it’s a good way to express myself. However, it came to light at times that viewers from all over the world are actually reading what I have to say. I’m also aware that some of my blogs have put smiles on the faces of my friends.

Making people happy is what motivates me to continue writing and blogging. Being happy is important, and if I’m making someone happy then I intend to keep up with that flow! =)

THANKS FOR READING

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I summarised my whole year to the best of my abilities. How did I do? Did I waffle too much? Haha. Well, I had to figure out how I was going to write this blog. In all honesty, it wasn’t a tough as I anticipated. All I had to do was sum up what I did and share my adventures from last November to now. =)

I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. I can’t wait to see what my future adventures will involve next.

See you next time.^^/

Namaste,^^/

Ryan.

Negativity to Positivity

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Good day!^^/

I consider myself to be a very positive person as I naturally look at things on the bright side rather than on the bleak side.

But, like most human beings, I do have my fed-up moments. Sometimes it stems from lack of sleep, sometimes it stems from other sources. Naturally, when one is thinking negative, your mind will play tricks on you. You remember the past times when someone has said something that cheesed you off. Or, you anticipate scenarios that may happen and how you would deal them and make yourself heard. But in reality, if that situation did occur, you would actually be completely different. Because, at the end of the day, imagination is one thing but reality is something different.

That’s at least how I think whenever I think negative. Stress, anxiety and uncertainty can come easily for an Autistic person since it’s the littlest things that can be actually the biggest things. I’m no exception. I’m positive but I do have my moments. I especially don’t like sudden visitors or getting invited out on an impromptu outing. By all means I handle these situations a lot better than I did in the past but my Autistic side does play mind-games with me, a lot.

This week has especially been unlucky for me.

This doesn’t really involve me per se but I am quite saddened by the sacking of Chris Powell from Chartlon Athletic. I’ve supported Charlton since I was 9 years old and I remember him from his playing days at Charlton. I got an autograph from him once but that’s another story. Charlton reached the Quarter finals and played Sheffield United. Unfortunately they lost but all credit to Sheffield United; they showed that they belong in the FA Cup. I was disappointed with the loss but I was just happy that they reached so far in the FA Cup because we’ve always been unlucky when it came to cup competitions.

During Badminton this week, I go every Monday, a shuttlecock landed on one part of the climbing frame. I offered myself as leverage for my brother, but he somehow mistimed his jump and landed on my back in a squat position, it was like a knight landing on a horse from a castle. XD With a lot of willpower I managed to jump at a good height and retrieve the shuttle cock, but then came the more challenging prospect…getting down! I got down safely (eventually) but had very sore arms, a sore back and a twisted hip (don’t ask how that happened, I don’t even know myself. XD)

Over the course of the days I could barely walk. Then came the part where I was making everyone a cup of tea…I went in the cupboard to look for something when something fell out of the cupboard and went straight into my drink but completely avoided both my parents’ cups! XD!

However, all is not lost. I have a lot of techniques for wiping the negativity from my mind. I may think negative thoughts but luckily I’m able to guide them out of my head and into the bin. =)

Technique One: Don’t think about the thing that’s in your head.

You’ve probably heard this many times. I agree, it is easier said than done, especially when you’re wound up and/or upset. But, it actually isn’t all that difficult, it’s much simpler then you think. What I do is, instead of wiping it from my head I just replace it with something that I enjoy and/or love. That way, I grow positive vibes inside my stomach and whatever was making me mad before has long since flushed down the toilet. 😉

Technique Two: Yoga

A lot of people, who are not familiar with Yoga, often say “Oh, it’s just about being bendy!” Yes, yoga does give you more core strength and enables you to bend like a professional contortionist but it’s much more than being “bendy.” Yoga is all about finding inner peace.

I always come away from Yoga feeling nothing but calm and positivite. Doing certain stretches, postures and tranquil visualisations inside my head makes me feel like I’m releasing a bunch of negative energy in one go. Likewise I found that twisting my hips and stretching my body makes me feel relaxed and happy. They say that your emotions lie within your hips and waist and I believe this is true. I mostly exercise my hips and waist but I always end up happy. It sends happy vibes to my head and to my chest.^^/

Technique Three: If you can’t change it, why worry

If something is out of my hands, I just don’t really bother worrying. If something can’t be done, it can’t be done. There is no point in fretting over things that are out of my control. Like when Chris Powell got sacked from Charlton. I’m sad about that but being sad won’t change the fact that Powell is no longer their manager. So, I just remind myself how much he has done for the club. And no matter what happens to Charlton, even if they get relegated to the Conference South, I will still support them always. =)

Technique Four: Talking

Venting out your feelings, crying and whatever is also helpful. Nothing good comes from when you’re bottling up negative energy. If you need to release it and cry then cry. I don’t really need to cry since I don’t get overly emotional about things but I do need to talk. I need to talk to clear my head and to express my anxiety. Sometimes you can give the best advice and lend an ear, but like most humans, you will ultimately need to be given advice and have someone to lend an ear for you. It doesn’t make you a hypocrite, it means that you give awesome advice but you’re still a human being.

Technique Five: Focus on things that you enjoy.

So, the things that I enjoy…

  • Writing my stories since I’m expressing my imagination
  • Drawing. I like to draw my character but I also like to draw fanart.
  • Watching Anime like Heaven’s Lost Property, Non Non Biyori or Is This a Zombie?
  • Read manga like Monster Musume
  • Play games like Mario, Worms
  • Listening to music, mostly the Non Non Biyori soundtrack.
  • Listening to the wind and rain
  • Yoga, I do Yoga poses and Capoeira moves every day, if not, every other day
  • Watching plenty of comedy, like Only Fools and Horses and Alan Partridge
  • Watching films like Iron Man, Man of Steel and Rush Hour
  • Thomas the Tank Engine and Friends
  • Photography. I love taking photos of nature, birds, people’s shadows and unusual perspectives.
  • Talking with my family and friends. I mostly like to hear about their day rather than speaking about my day
  • Having a nice long bath and washing my hair
  • Fresh orange juice and water…it’s odd but drinking cool drinks can make me feel very energetic whereas hot drinks can make me feel tranquilised.

 

Technique Six: Sleep

It helps clear your mind and recovers your body from fatigue.

The point I’m trying to make is that you should apply whatever technique suits you in order to rid yourself of negative thoughts. I have plenty of ways and I sincerely hope you enjoyed reading about what techniques I apply. =D!

Have a Good Weekend everyone,

Namaste. ^^/

Ryan